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After a spouse dies the grieving process for the surviving one becomes a way of life

October 25, 2011 by Melissa Chapman 4 Comments

My father, the man who shared his every waking moment with my mother
since she was the tender age of fifteen has been gone five months now
and for my mother the grieving process becomes more difficult each and
every day.

Truthfully, my siblings and I haven’t had much time to grieve; because
as soon as my dad passed, we were thrust into this all encompassing
role of caring for our mother who was and still is so overcome with
this sense of being frozen in time and unable to move forward without
her spouse that it is a constant battle for us to keep her from
tearing apart at the seams.

I know my dad is not the first person to leave this earth- and my
mother is but one of so many widows who experience a loss so profound
it feels hard to breathe. I think what is most heartbreaking is that
my mother is constantly muttering this phrase to whoever will listen,
“If Daddy could just close his eyes and go to sleep then so can I,”
which to my siblings and I sounds very much like an almost suicidal
revelation.

Most of us, myself included, just don’t realize the scope of one’s
grief- especially following all the pomp and circumstance of a
funeral, a week of shiva ( a ritual sitting and mourning of the dead
when one’s house is brimming with food and people and lots of energy)
to a house that is all but deafeningly silent.

My mother cannot bear to be alone in her house- a house in which so
many of the details were masterminded by my dad. A house where
intricately carved chess sets and limited edition prints- hand chosen
by my dad seem to be everywhere. His spirit, his essence is so alive
in the house, and yet his physical presence is gone and my mother is
left to ramble about its four walls only to take to her bed.

Although my father has been gone five months- my mother says, each
night she has these vivid dreams that he’s there, they’re talking,
he’s right bedside her and when she wakes up- she almost expects his
body to be right there. In fact she has woken up and said she’s seen
him sitting in his favorite chair in front of the television, but once
she wipes the sleep from her eyes, he’s gone.

I tell her, he would want her to continue living to derive as much joy
as she can from the children and grandchildren they produced- but my
mother says, without him, she just feels like half of who she once
was. She asserts so much of the joy she got was from seeing his eyes
light up at his grandchildren, and being with us, no longer feels
natural or comfortable- and in doing so in a way is almost a betrayal
of him.

For my mother, and the rest of us, unfortunately, the grieving process
has become our new familial normal.

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  1. Judi says

    October 25, 2011 at 6:33 pm

    Losing your spouse is like a cannon ball through your gut for months. I can relate to everything you wrote here, even what sounds suicidal. The children said a few things to me that helped. Some words help immediately and others come back over and over again to ease more than one frantic moment.
    “He was worth every tear, Mom. Of course you’re grieving; the biggest piece of your life just disappeared!”
    “Whatever you’re feeling, even the crazy thoughts, are exactly right for what you’re going through”
    And the best?
    “I know, Mom. I know.”

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  2. Debra @ A Frugal Friend says

    October 25, 2011 at 6:45 pm

    Having lost my mom to breast cancer suddenly (she was 55), I can relate to watching my dad dealing with the grief (and postponing my own grieving). It’s so hard.

    Hugs to you all!

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  3. lifestartsnow says

    October 26, 2011 at 6:05 pm

    my dad passed away 21 years ago and my mom is still grieving. she has a live and she is active and all but sometimes, she just sits by herself in the kitchen and cries because she misses him.
    when he passed away she was so struck by grief she lost her voice for weeks at a time and turned gray almost over night.

    grieving is a long and hard process that takes on many stages. the only thing you can do is to let your mom know that you are there for her and actually really listen to her when she feels like talking.

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  4. robin says

    November 12, 2011 at 12:58 pm

    Grief is natural, however as you describe it, it sounds like it has become clinical depression, and,maybe medication would help?

    Reply

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