Guest post by Paulina DeLuca
When I first started to think about writing, I initially thought I would write a book. Then common sense kicked in and I thought, “Really, who the hell am I kidding here!” I tend to get so many ideas, and they all run through my head at the same time, so I tend to be a little disorganized with my thoughts. Plus, I work a full time job and I have a very spirited, hurricane of a child that I give all my attention to. So, here goes my first attempt at writing a blog.
I always knew I wanted to have children. At least two, definitely not more than three, and if I was lucky to have a boy and a girl, I would definitely stop at two. Maybe it was just me, but whenever I envisioned myself with a child, I always had a clear picture in my head. Once I became pregnant, that picture became even clearer. When they would be little, I would have a perfect cherub faced angel, who slept perfectly, never cried, and acted like a dream. As I envisioned my husband and I with our baby growing into a toddler, I imagined going to parks, movies, dinner, vacations, fun stuff in general and we would have the ideal child who never threw a tantrum. Once they got older, especially if it was a girl, I could see myself with her going on shopping trips, getting our nails done, having a girls day out with my friends. All the things I had seen in the movies, or saw some of my friends doing with their children.
Now in reality, I knew that was a far cry from what having a child was really like and I knew that would never happen. Yes, I knew obviously it was going to be a lot of work. However, no one really and truly prepared me for what it would be like. From the labor to the days in the hospital, going home with a newborn and thinking “Who in the freaking hell let me have a child?”, to the first few crazy months of infancy. I remember spending the first six months of my daughter Natalie’s life, literally in a haze. Now that she’s almost nineteen months, I get sad when I look back at that time and think of it as utter chaos. And yet, I know I’m not the only one. There have to be other parents out there who felt (and feel) like that.
Which brings me to now. I’ve decided that it may be interesting to get my thoughts “Out There” and see what people think and see how you felt. Thanks to Melissa’s generosity, she’s offered me a voice here on her wonderful site. I look forward to writing some more and I can’t wait to hear what everyone has to say.
Paulina DeLuca is the full time working mother of one very amazing and spirited toddler (much of whom you will learn about reading her posts, as everything revolves around Natalie), as well as a very needy Yorkie, and a wife to her teenage love. Not to sound like a online dating profile, but a huge lover as well of NASCAR, Dance Movies, a good portion of The CW television shows, and obsessed with going to see NKOTB in concert. Don’t Judge! You can follow Paulina on twitter at https://twitter.com/#!/PaulinaDe